DearCollins。你是命运安排在我生命中的英雄

　　When I never met you, I slept well every day at this time. I also woke up in the middle of the night to feed my baby, and I woke up in the middle of the night because of despair and pain. Hold yourself tight, cry after crying, and then fall asleep, and when I meet Collins, I will wake up in the middle of the night, but it seems to be awakened from my sleepy dream by love and dreams!
　　我在未曾遇到你的时候，我每天这时候都是睡的好踏实，我也曾半夜醒来为孩子喂奶，也曾半夜醒来因为绝望而痛苦，只能一个人在深夜里紧紧的抱紧自己，哭完了哭累了而后睡下，而我遇到柯林斯，我也会半夜醒来，但是仿佛是被爱和梦想从我沉睡的梦里唤醒！
　　Every time I feel desperate and painful in my marriage, I am hurt in my relationship for fear of losing the other person. I painfully keep tears and write a lot of messages to the other party. When the other party has not responded, I see myself The feelings are so humble that I feel bothered to send messages to the other party. Even though I care and miss it a lot, all my misses and concerns will be troubles in the other party＂s life.
　　每次我在婚姻里感受到绝望痛苦的时候，在感情里被伤害而怕失去对方，自己痛苦的留着眼泪写了很多信息发给对方的时候，对方未曾回复的时候，我看到自己在感情里是那么的卑微，以至于我去给对方发信息都觉得是打扰，即使我很关心和想念，但是我所有的想念和关心都会是对方生活中的困扰。
　　So much so that I force myself to give up the idea of ​​talking to each other as if I quit gambling. When I restrained myself from having any emotional dependence and expectation of the other party, my life seemed to be redeemed by feelings, but I have never been to each other since then. No longer have any expectations, give the other person absolute freedom. When the other person returns to me, the love in my heart has become no longer love. Perhaps a woman does not love you or loves less, a woman has the most Charm.
　　以至于我强迫自己和戒赌一样戒掉主动和对方说话的想法，当我一次次克制自己不在对对方有任何情绪依赖和期待的时候，我的生命仿佛在感情得到救赎，但是我从此对对方不在有任何期待，给对方绝对的自由，对方在回到我身边的时候，我内心的爱已经变得不在是爱情，或许一个女人不爱你或者爱的少的时候，才是一个女人最有魅力的时候。
　　Think oneself are let down in affection, because oneself are too babyish, too pure, too too soft-hearted, those who do not have base line is right affection one-minded, good cheat still pour stick, it is good to coax, still always good scar forgot to ache, tell oneself from now on, love oneself well, love is good, faithful trust respect also should give right person.
　　想想自己之所以在感情里被辜负，是因为自己太幼稚，太单纯，太过心软，没有底线的对感情专一，好骗还倒贴，一哄就好，还总是好了伤疤忘了疼，从此告诉自己，好好爱自己，爱善良忠诚信任尊重也要给对的人。
　　Until I met Collins, I often woke up in the middle of the night, but it was never the pain that woke me up, but the dream in my heart and the manuscript I had not finished writing. Collins and I were the male protagonists in my story and the story in my mind. If I were the director of fate, and also the actor of my own fate, I would play the female number one, but I have been fantasizing about what the male number one looks like, which is something I particularly look forward to. Every time I think of it or watch idol dramas, I will pretend to laugh, but at that moment my heart is happy.
　　直到我遇到柯林斯，我半夜也时常醒来，但是叫醒我的从来不是痛苦，而是我内心的梦想和我未曾写完的书稿，柯林斯与我而言就是我故事里期待出现和脑海中那个故事里的男主。如果我是命运的导演，也是自己命运演员，我扮演女一号，但是我一直幻想着的男一号是什么样子，这是我特别期待的一件事，每次想起来或者看偶像剧也会假象一下，然后自己笑一下，但是那一刻我内心是幸福的。
　　Until his appearance, the balance in my life was broken, as if a stubborn person like me would have expectations for the one I love, I once said to myself, if my destiny I cannot choose, I can’t find true love, then I wrote my heart＂s love in the story, and created an ideal male protagonist for myself. Perhaps because I was so eager for such a person to protect me, God arranged for him to come to my life.
　　直到他的出现，我的生命中的平衡被打破，仿佛我这么顽固的人也会对爱的人有期待，我曾和自己说过，如果我命运我无法选择，我找不到真爱，那么我把自己内心爱的渴望写在故事里，给自己塑造一个理想的男主，或许生命因为我太过渴望这样一个人来保护我，所以上帝安排他来到我的生命。
　　I unexpectedly found different national borders, different languages, different cultures, different experiences, but have a consistent and deep understanding and deep resonance with life. When you fall into my destiny, when two people are arranged by fate, I am What has always been thought of as impossible seems to have become simple and natural.
　　我竟然发现不同国界，不同语言不同文化，不同的经历但是对人生却有一致深刻的理解和深深的共鸣，当你坠入我命运，当两个人被命运安排一起的时候，我生命中我一直认为的不可能仿佛变得简单和顺其自然。
　　I may have been in the mountains for six years. I can’t speak because of the hardship, but I don’t have the courage to come out. Even though many people tell me that it’s okay to leave as long as I leave, but I don’t have any sense of security to the outside world. The world is so big. I should Where to go, I can’t break through and change the environment. I can only change my mentality to adapt to the hard life, and continue to learn and grow in the hard life. This may be the only source of happiness in my heart. I didn’t until the moment Collins appeared. Found that people who share fate really exist in this world,It turns out that the person who makes you laugh doesn＂t want you to cry at all.
　　我或许在大山里六年，日子苦的我无法言语，但是我没有走出来的勇气，即使很多人告诉我只要我离开哪里就可以，但是我对外界没任何安全感，世界那么大，我应该何去何从，我无法突破和改变环境，只能改变自己心态去适应艰苦的生活，在艰苦的生活中不断的学习和自我成长，这或许是我内心快乐唯一的源泉，直到柯林斯出现的那一刻我才发现命运与共之人真的存在于这个世界上，原来让你笑的人根本不舍得你哭泣。
　　Day and night, sadness and joy, me and you.Everything you meet is the way to go,Each is the mirror of each other, and each other＂s welfare.
　　日与夜，悲与喜，我和你。凡所遇见，皆是必经的路途，互为明镜，互为福祉。
　　Perhaps when everyone＂s fate is particularly difficult, God will arrange an angel to comfort you. Let you reconcile with all the unpleasantness in the past, and let you accept everything that comes up in your own destiny. At this time, you will find that people are flexible, and we will have different traits when we are with different people. We spend a long time with people we don＂t like, and we will hate ourselves more and more. Therefore, I said to myself that those with different perspectives don’t need to be strong, and those who don’t like don’t even need to be perfunctory.
　　或许每个人的命运在特别艰苦的时候，上帝都会安排一个天使来安慰你。让你和过去一切的不愉快和解，让你接纳自己命运出现的一切，这时候你会发现人是有弹性的，跟不同人在一起我们自己就会有不同的性状。我们跟自己不喜欢的人在一起呆久了，自己也会越来越讨厌自己的。所以我和自己说，三观不同者，不必强融，不喜欢的人，连敷衍都不必。
　　For the important things and important people in my life, no matter how busy I am, I will have time. When I say there is no time, generally speaking, it is just this person and this matter that are not so important to me. Likewise, if another person tells me that there is no time, I know what it means.
　　对于我人生重要的事情、重要的人，无论多忙，我都会有有时间。当我说没时间的时候，一般来说，只是是这个人、这件事对我而言不那么重要而已。同样，如果另一个人告诉我没时间时，我就知道这意味着是什么意思了。
　　All the experiences of life And feelings, baby. If you can feel it, it means you＂re alive. I can still tell. All efforts are resources, successful feelings of happiness, failure on the summary of the need to grow. No experience is superfluous, only the confrontation and non-acceptance of experience and experience are superfluous.
　　人生所有的经历和感受都是宝贝。能够感受，说明你还活着，还能判断。所有的努力都是资源，成功了感受幸福，失败了就总结需要成长的地方。没有任何的体验是多余的，只有对体验和经历的对抗和不接纳是多余的。
　　The process of shaping yourself is very painful, and you should endure it. I dare not say that there must be a surprise in the end. But the soul that has been sculpted, Is the meaning of coming to this world. I always like a face with a slight wind and frost, to prove that they have fought with their own flesh and blood, but also alone to heal the wounds.
　　塑造自己的过程很疼，要忍忍。不敢说疼到最后一定有惊喜，但经历过雕刻的灵魂，
　　才是来到这个世上的意义。我总喜欢一张张略带风霜的脸，证明他们曾与自己血肉搏杀、又独自抚平伤口。
　　When Collins told me that when the contract he worked hard for a long time didn’t go well, he didn’t want to eat and felt very frustrated, disappointed, and painful. I wanted to hold him and say to eat well, sleep well, and live well. Most things can be easily solved, promise me, please take care of yourself for me. Everything will be fine. It turns out that it is very happy to encourage the one you love.
　　当柯林斯告诉我说，因为自己努力很久的合同进展不顺利的时候，他不想吃饭觉得很沮丧很失望很痛苦的时候，我很想抱着他说好好吃饭、好好睡觉、好好地生活下去，绝大多数的事情都能迎刃而解，答应我，请你替我好好照顾自己。一切都会好起来，原来鼓励陪伴自己所爱之人是很幸福的一件事。
　　The only function of our own bad feelings is to remind ourselves that we have deviated from the track of freedom, happiness and love, and that our hearts need to be adjusted. We fight it, we avoid it, we get caught up in it. It＂s all the wrong way to deal with it. In the face of their own hearts, calm to forgive mistakes, so that you can be able to repair the chest magnanimity, savings have a lifetime of happiness. Because I deeply understand that our strength determines the world＂s eyes on us. Be kind to others in good times, be kind to yourself in bad times, learn to make friends with fate, when we can＂t change everything that happens in fate, learn to change an attitude to look at fate, life will be a new presentation.
　　我们自己感受不好的唯一功能，就是提醒自己已经偏离了自由、快乐和爱的轨道，告诉我们的内心需要调整。我们用对抗、逃避和陷入其中，这一切都是错误的应对方式。面对自己内心，坦然的去原谅错误，从而可以可以修得胸中雅量，储蓄得一生幸福。 ​​​因为我深刻的懂得，我们的实力决定世界看我们的眼色。顺境的时候善待他人，逆境善待自己学会和命运做朋友，当我们无法改变命运中发生的一切时，学会换一种态度去看待命运，生命将会是一种新的呈现。
　　I love Collins as my life. When he walked into my heart, he told me that I was the only one in his world, his whole world, and he was a person who could guard my heart well, and asked me if I would To him, when I trusted him, I was deeply touched by this man named Collins. I actually saw him when his heart was fragile and lonely, and he instinctively wanted to protect him. He deserves to be loved and to have happiness. I am especially grateful that fate deliberately arranged for such a person in my life.
　　Make my world cute from now on? Life is so wonderful, there will be such an adventure in my destiny, like a dream.
　　我爱柯林斯如同我的生命，当他走入我内心的时候，他告诉我，我是他世界上的唯一，他的全世界，他是一个可以很好看守我内心的人，问我可否愿意给他，信任他的时候，我被这个叫柯林斯的人深深触动。我竟然看到他内心脆弱孤独的时候，本能的想要保护他，他值得被爱和拥有幸福，我特别感恩命运刻意安排给我生命中这样一个人，让我的世界从此变得可爱起来？生命如此奇妙，我的命运里也会出现这样的奇遇，仿佛一场梦境。
　　A soul mate is a person with whom we feel deeply connected, as if communicating and communicating with each other is not driven by deliberate effort, but guided by the heart. Soul mates are not half of the soul, we are all complete souls. So true love is toward yourself, not toward others. what is love? I think about this problem many times. Love is actually very simple. Whatever improves, enriches, and enriches our lives is love.
　　The thing that leads to all heights and depths is love. When I meet Collins, the quality in my life seems to become deeper, and my heart is softer and more compassionate. This may be the meaning of love for Collins and me.
　　一个灵魂伴侣，就是一个我们感受自身与之深深联系在一起的人，好像彼此的沟通和交流，不是出于刻意的努力，而是凭内心的引导。灵魂伴侣并不是灵魂的一半，我们都是完整的灵魂。所以真爱是走向自己，不是走向别人。什么是爱？我思考很多次这个问题，爱其实很简单，凡是提高、充实、丰富我们生活的东西就是爱，通向一切高度和深度的东西就是爱，遇见柯林斯，我生命中品质仿佛变得更加深刻，我内心更为柔软和慈悲，这或许就是柯林斯与我而言爱的意义所在。
　　Whenever I am tired of life in the world, I will think of Collins, thinking that you are living with me somewhere in the world, existing, and I am willing to endure all the unsatisfactory in life. It turns out that your presence is really important to me. I know that I love you, and when you love me, I will keep smiling even in hard days because you tell me that I look amazing and beautiful, and I have a great smile, even though I have experienced it. A lot and I can still keep smiling.
　　每当我对世间的生活厌倦的时候，我就会想到柯林斯，想到你在世界的某个地方和我一起生活着，存在着，我就愿意忍受生活中的一切不如意。原来你的存在对我而言，真的很重要。我知道我爱你，你也很爱我的时候，即使很苦的日子我也会保持微笑，因为你告诉我，我看起来很神奇很美丽，我拥有一个了不起的微笑，即使我已经经历了很多而我依然可以保持微笑。